So, my dance partner has an idea that is quite appealing to me...

Since I have been dancing as long as I have been walking, my muscles are developed for that purpose particularly...with that in mind...why not keep dancing?  A lot of the ballet steps that are done for strengthening are done balancing on one leg anyway...so when I get a prosthetic, when I learn how to balance on it, I can continue to do some of my ballet exercises at the barre...also, even before I get a prosthetic, I can do rises and plie's (which are bending your knee working on the strength of your calf, quad, hip, and lower back)...and, because we have been dancing together for so long, he said that if and when I am ready to, with his support and assistance, we can "dance"...without the barre, because he will be there to support my weight and help me when I need it...maybe it's not the end of the road for me and dance...perhaps I just need a new approach?

I know that I am a long way from being able to even start doing these things, but that doesn't mean that I'm not going to do it.  It's hope...

Now, my goal isn't to walk, because that *has* to happen for me to reach my real goal...to dance.

I'll keep posting as this all is happening...who knows...maybe the exercises will be something that others can do as well?  I'm keeping my fingers crossed!

Hi.  Up until May 5, 2008 I was a professional ballerina.  Long and very painful story short, I was attacked violently, and because I am currently very ill with cancer, there were complications galore with my recovery, which after months of surgeries and treatments, led to emergency amputation.  I'm really not very okay with this right now.  I've been a dancer my entire life.  I need so much help.  That's why I'm here.  I don't really understand my doctors, and I'm just so confused.  I could use any advise there is for me.  I don't know how to operate without my leg...I know I probably sound ridiculous...but it's true.  I can't even look at it.  While I'm lying here, I can still feel it...it's like my leg is cold, but it's not even there anymore.  I still have to face chemo and radiation, so it's like I don't have time to adjust.  I suck at manuvering a wheelchair.  My doctor won't allow me to use crutches for a while (her words, not mine), so I'm resigned to bumping into everything.  This is all so frusterating!  If there's anyone out there who can help, please, let me know!  I can't just sit here not knowing anything.  I'm a take charge kind of gal, and now I just have to wait.  Thanks.