.....one year today since my dad passed on, he was 61...and I miss his physical presence. He was 'seriously' diabetic and suffered a heart problem, despite being abled, he tires easily on long walks (as excercise) especially uphill more than I do...I could do a marathon till my ottobock knee gives way but then....sigh............he did suffer for a couple years... He was one person, the only one in our family of five who really stood out for me. He was active in non-profit organizations like Goodwill Industries(for the disabled) and had been of service to people with disabilities(he would hire them to do some fixing in the house, although a 2 days work for an abled body is 1 week for an amputee, but nevertheless his patience was amazing). I might say he's pretty biased towards amputees because of his daughter:), figuratively he had a BIG heart, and he's BIG on compassion...IRONICALLY but literally he had an enlarged heart....tears....tears....he gave whatever he can so I could walk well...he's a bit vain too, haha....but I guess there would always be something obvious when you're walking with a prosthesis. I know that he's in another realm, another dimension wherein all these sufferings are non-existent. And he's happy. He's always been concerned for my happiness but the anxiety brought about my handicap was always there. But now he's happy. And we both know now that this physical body is very temporary. I did lose my leg physically but I know when I reach the other side, I won't be needing my prosthetics because all the while I never really lost my leg. I can still feel it, it's how I look at it whenever I feel phantom pains or whatever. And when I do see my dad again in the next realm, I know I'll be taking walks with him, carefree and no worries for the both of us. I miss you, dad...I know I thanked you well enough..I'm still thanking you for everything that I am now, I truly appreciate who I am now, both the good and the bad side. I embrace my uniqueness because you showed great compassion to people like me.
