So I love this site but sometimes i feel like maybe Im talkin into a smoke filled wind ..... HHhhhhhhheloooooooo.......... Maybe I am just a person that likes to talk to people on a regular and on going lets make a friendship type basis. Im sorry if I sound like I am whinning. I am. Im stuck at home feelin blah and not having much of a social life. So I enter the world of less than 4 to talk to people like myself. I have made a few friends that a somewhat regular conversation has partially takin hold of. ;) thank you to those of you... Im not saying that nobody talks to me boo hoo but I am saying that i think that i have put to much hope in having good friends/ confidants through this website. I enjoy EVERY SINGLE story that I read and have read and will continue to read. I have found that people astound me with their strength and drive. I think that every page that I have read I have thought to myself " I'd Love to me this person"... I have so many thoughts in my head about getting together with other people "like" me. I see tv shows like LITTLE PEOPLE BIG WORLD, they have conventions for little people. It makes me want a less than four convention. I think of all the friends that Id make and have and all the stories being swapped and the laughs. The things in my head are so perfect. Having cancer and being an amputee gives you alot of time that I have spent alone, In the hospital. Being alone alot either gives you a mind of on going hopes and dreams and imagination. If ands or buts.... Or it makes you crazy. I think it has made me a little of both. Some of the screws have come lose and are lost in the chaos that is my mind. And now you all have become a part of that. A part of my if ANDS or buts. I cant say that i have no where to go to have friends. Or that nobody listens. You are. You the person that made it to the end of this sad woe is me page. all I have to say to YOU is thank you. You really dont know how much it means to me to be heard. Even through the wonder of technology. I like to listen to. Talk to me. and Ill listen and ill be that silent friend to you. and again

THANK YOU,

YOUR FRIEND GOOGIE