Tomorrow I'm having some (minor) skin surgery performed. A former minister once said that "minor" surgery is somebody else's! Ain't it so! So many of us are diabetics that I feel wimpy complaining about the Arikstra shots in my stomach my husband gives me prior to the surgery, since I can't take the Cumadin to thin my blood beforehand. Yes, I know I could give them to myself, but I just can't bring myself to do it. I've been kind of depressed the last couple of weeks, probably due to the change in weather (cooler) and the fact that old friends have visited, making my disability even more apparent. These were people I used to party with, go dancing with, stayed out all night talking & drinking with, and in general, living life to the fullest with. My body has changed considerably after taking chemo like I can't stay up late anymore, laugh at jokes the same, and I find I just want to forget that former life, although I love the friendship we all share(d). I have met no other amputees in my area that maybe I could forge at least an acquaintanceship with, if not a friendship. There is an amputee support group in the area, but it's quite a distance from my house, & I hear it isn't well-attended by other than prosthetics salespeople!
On the humorous side, after 2 years of having gallons of blood drawn for tests, being MRI'd, CT'd, & PET'd, it occurred to me that I hadn't had a skin exam in quite awhile. Living on the coast all my life, I spent every sunny summer day out on the beach, basking, baking in the sun. So, I went to my dermatologist, who asked if there was a particular concern I had. She could hardly hold back her giggles when I told her how funny it would be for me to die of a melanoma or something after being probed & prodded by every other specialty. Think about it! At the funeral: "Well, she had lung cancer, but it was a mole that killed her." If I were a guest at that funeral, I'd HAVE to laugh.
Hope this doesn't offend anyone, or bring someone down. I've already been unfriended by unfriends on Facebook, so my personal feelings aren't hurt by s--- like this.